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Gooden Discloses Near Suicide Attempt

June 21, 1996

NEW YORK (AP) _ Dwight Gooden put a gun to his head and considered suicide nearly two years ago after being suspended from baseball for drug use, the New York Yankees pitcher told the New York Daily News.

``I was sitting in the bedroom with a gun in my hand,″ Gooden told the newspaper in a story for today’s editions. ``My wife walked in, and I actually had the gun to my head, thinking about pulling the trigger.″

Gooden, who returned to baseball this year with the Yankees, said the September 1994 incident happened a day after he was suspended by acting commissioner Bud Selig.

``I was so destroyed by that,″ Gooden said. ``I was sitting there with the gun. I’d say, `Go ahead and end it,′ but then I’d say, `No, be a man and face up to your responsibilities, your wife and kids.′ ″

He said his wife, Monica, walked into the room at that time.

``I don’t know if I ever would have actually done it, but then my wife walked in and she just freaked,″ Gooden said. ``She started screaming, and she grabbed the gun from me. When I think about it now, it was crazy. The gun was loaded; it could have gone off.

``But she grabbed it from me, and then she ran and called my mom and told her to come over right away. When I think about it, the whole thing was terrifying.″

The Daily News said Gooden spoke about the incident because film makers have approached him about making a movie telling his life story.

``It would be the toughest scene in the movie, especially for my wife and for my mother,″ Gooden said. ``I haven’t ever talked about this, but it would have to be in the movie if I’m going to be honest and do something that will make people understand what I went through with drugs.″

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